Becoming More Awesome.

So, here's the deal. I weigh 30o pounds, have acne, and am tired and depressed all the time. I have gained 80 pounds this year. I went to an appointment at student health today to get some test results and basically the nurse practitioner told me that my symptoms weren't all my fault and that she was going to order a bunch of tests, and put me on medicine and after that I can get better. I can turn this f***ed up life I'm having around and become a normal person. It's going to take a lot of work, but I'll be better! After the last appointment I'd been to in the same place where I was basically diagnosed with the Freshman 15, this was just the thing I needed. I was so frustrated. She got me to admit that it was all becoming a bit too overwhelming, and got me to decide to go to counseling, so the practitioner I saw today was worlds better than the first one. She used the F word which I really appreciated. It turns out that Student Health isn't evil, the practitioner I saw is. She just did not listen to me at all. But, it's good now. Things can be different, and I have not given up yet. I don't know why, with all the problems I have had, why I didn't just give up completely already. I really don't know where it comes from, but I still have some fight left in me. I can be a totally different person, and it's not going to come quickly or easily but I CAN definitely have the things I want and deserve.

I feel like this is 'just fine' as a style blog, but I have problems and writing about them is making this so much easier to me. Who knows, maybe you can relate. So, this is going to me a 'me becoming more awesome' blog too, and if you have a problem about me writing about my real problems, then don't read it. Capiche?